I was thinking of how I should explain the drunk dial for those of you that don't know, but honestly it means exactly what you think it would mean. A drunk dial is when a person who drinks, drinks too much, gets drunk and dials up a previous boyfriend, girlfriend, old friend or acquaintance, etc. and declares some statement of undying love or some private statement that should have been left unsaid. It is famous in chick flicks and infamous with those who do it in reality. Don't think that because I don't drink, that I have not or am not capable of the sober drunk dial.
I was out to dinner with some friends and I was explaining the heartache I felt over not being able to explain myself to my ex-boyfriend and the heartache I felt that my ex-boyfriend would not take nor return any of my phone calls. My friend looked at me and said, "You've called him?" I explained that in a moment of loneliness and sadness, I might have made a phone call or two or three.... he gave me a look of pity and said, "And you don't even drink. Chris, we don't call ex-boyfriends, we are better than that." He then must have seen the sad look on my face because then he kindly said, "However, we all get over relationships in our own way but really Chris, no more phone calls!"
I don't know if it is that we are better than that but we should respect ourselves more than that. I realized that one of my catalyst for wanting to sober drunk dial is obviously not alcohol, it is those moments of lost faith and lost hope. They can happen any time but them seem to happen more frequently after you (or really when I) have watched a movie where the unlikely characters fall in a warm embrace and declare how no outside influence, no obstacle can stop them from their love. It makes you a bit sick but you also want just a piece of it. Someone who will defy all odds to come to your rescue. It is in those moments that you just want to pick up the phone and maybe have the other person on the other end say something, anything that would take away some of the loneliness, heartache and the unknown. Late nights, too much thinking time, quiet houses, cheesy movies, airplane trips, romantic holidays, holidays in general are all times that we (or I) can be in danger of giving in to those moments and making a sober drunk dial, text, email. I would like to say that we should find a way to dig deep and stay strong and that we are where we are for a good reason and looking backwards has never been the solution. However, I personally know the struggle of trying to make sense of a situation that may never make sense and wanting to find a way to make the angst of it all go away.
For the record, I should get some points for tonight because after the couple kissed and the credits rolled, I spent a few minutes reminiscing about my past and then reality grabbed hold and I wrote this post because as my friend said, "We ARE better than that!" So, here is to not sober drunk dialing. Cheers!!
