I will be 36 years old in March of this year. Wow, I said it. The big 36! However I have felt 36 for the last year. You see I have this problem. When I turn a certain age, I start telling people that I am going to be the next age. For example, someone will ask me how old I am and I will say, “Well, I am 35 but I am almost 36.” I am not almost 36 (I wasn't when I first wrote this back in November) but it is just what I say.
I have been worried about turning 36 because it just seems old to be single and childless. I know that it isn’t old per se and I know that you all know people who have had children in their 40's but it just seems like the biological clock is letting me know that I am on the downhill, my window is closing, the sand is running out......you get the idea. I have had crazy thoughts about just having a child (adoption, etc.) but I just don't want a child to have a child. I want the whole family; the husband and the baby!
Anyway, after I wrote the post about my nephew Eric’s birthday and his lucky number, I have changed my attitude (for right now). My lucky number is 6 because like Eric I am the sixth child in my family and I was born on the 26th. So, with my great logic and simple math (6 x 6 = 36)! 2011 and my 36th year is actually going to be my best year yet! I am going to have great happiness and success when I am 36. (I should write fortune cookies, ha, ha.)
Please remind me of this fact come March.
